Nothing inspire me to write
so i leave it as it is & come back when everything keeps flooding in.
For now, please takecare my friends
with much love,nisa
Sunday, November 15, 2009
Friday, October 30, 2009
sesungguhnye ini semua adalah ujian utk ku supaya ku banyak la bersabar dan bawak bertenang.
Apparently school start at 10 today & i donnoe why e hell i got up so early today and reached school at 820 and tot lecture start at 9 instead. fuhhhh! *breathe in and out* e tot of it give me this anger like i wanna seriously smack my head. but ofcourse not la cause wait people around me tot im e crazy school kid who talk to herself and give self abuse. kene maintain beb! YESTERDAY afta school i went to rugby training & reached home at 11 NIGHT! i finished up my assignment yg berlambak nak mampos and only went to bed at 1 and fall asleep at 130 am cause i have this habit of tossing & turning for as long as i get my best position before i can sleep! in order for me to function properly, i need to have atleast 6hours of sleep(inspired by fahkrudin) but now i only have 5 hours! when lecture start at 10, it means, i have an extra hour to sleep so i can have my 6 hours of sleeep! nbcb! goshh im turning myself into fahkrudin soon sia cause he always emphasize(note always!) that he NEED HIS 6 HOURS OF SLEEP TO FUNCTION PROPERLY FOR HIS MORNING SHIFT WORK.ok lets not make a big deal over my lack of 1 hour sleep. its just that i need e extra sleep cause i got a pretty long day yesterday from school and training. like i said, i have to function properly in school. HEH! its FRIDAY so i betta shut my crap up & stop whining. anyhoos,
Ill update nx on the pink bandage above sooooon :))
Friday, October 23, 2009
i typed down 'bitterheartbookcase.blogspot' which lead me to a page which state BLOG NOT FOUND. i was a little confused, type it down again incase i misspelled it & even say it out loud 3 times. somehow the 'bitterheartbookcase' doesnt really sounds familiar to me. then it strikes me, "kan bitterheart tu lagu from zee avi!" HAHA so kental or what! how e hell can i forget my blog's link. see la! too much zee avi i guess.
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first week of sem 2 was not that bad. strangely i do have fun with all my kental frens. tutorials & assignment pilling up. lecturers already start briefing the group projects & nx week wil be the first presentation for this sem. CEPAT KAPE! & thankfully i got everything on schedule. phew! *wipe sweats on forehead* lets hope it stays like this for the whole of sem 2. we already start imagining our graduation which ofcourse stil a longgggg wayyyyyyy tooooo gooooooo. sungguh la kecoh! but seriously, im so looking forward to that. its gonna be pretty soon without us realising.
first week of sem 2 was not that bad. strangely i do have fun with all my kental frens. tutorials & assignment pilling up. lecturers already start briefing the group projects & nx week wil be the first presentation for this sem. CEPAT KAPE! & thankfully i got everything on schedule. phew! *wipe sweats on forehead* lets hope it stays like this for the whole of sem 2. we already start imagining our graduation which ofcourse stil a longgggg wayyyyyyy tooooo gooooooo. sungguh la kecoh! but seriously, im so looking forward to that. its gonna be pretty soon without us realising.
oh anyways, i join wellness programme for SW lesson. in other word is GYM! that was like my 4th choice siaaa. actually i wanna tryout tennis or yoga or dancesport. they have limited spaces & e day of enrollment was so chaos. every single students from other courses who took SW lesson RUN to the lecture theater. I MEAN RUN AS IN REALLY SPEED RUN! i, who suffered cramped calves e day before because of last min rugby match, also fasten my pace. it hurts so bad & i swear i really walk like a retard. all i could say was "plsssssss make tennis available plsssssss!" squeeze myself thru a whole bunch of smelly sweating students & even cut queue to get in the LT. they bring in 10 at a time & once i get to step in, they only left with all e super kental sports like street soccer, badminton, blabla. & to me, gym was like e least kental so yes i enrolled gym with much regrets. boohoo! :( i could have run as fast if my calves wouldnt hurt that much. sigh! i never favour gym & i dont do workout in gym. i prefer to stay outdoor.
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we were introduce to our gym instructor. somehow i picture e instructor to be a chinese guy with muscular bod with tight fitting shirt that wil burst out anytime. but then he was named MR SHAH. we didnt get to see his face yet but Ummi, my fren's reaction was "asal melayu?! ak taknak melayu! malu ahhh!" but mine was like "ok pe melayu, senang pe communicate" & i picture him again to be some old looking guy with just normal size bod, like PE teacher or something. THEN HE APPEAR & he look like e malay version of BOB HARPER, (biggest loser instructor) with much bigger arm muscle & much taller.
i was like "ooooooooo-K!" with glowing eyes looking at ummi. HAHAHA!
& she replied "ape ok?! pikir DIKAU eh nisa!"
haha 'dikau' is fahkrudin fyi. yes! we have lotsa names for eachother. for now is dikau! ok atleast there's something to encourage me to do better in my SW module. there's test & attachment for this module ok! which i dont understand why there's a need to.
apart from everything, i never stop missing fahkrudin. i remember it was difficult on me for last sem. always asking to comfort me every now & then because of e whole new environment, venting my anger on him, crankier altho its not my period week & all nonsense & unneccessary complaints. he never once asked me get over it. i repeatedly complaint to him of e same old thing & stil he listened. (confirm he said to himself "i have heard that for 24674569034 times now!) hahaha! I, myself is not perfect. i do give fahkrudin a very hard time. i count myself lucky to have fahkrudin, e man who stays by my side, catch me when i fall & help me up on my two feet. even if he did let me fall, he mend my wounds & hold me close. we have gone thru alot, a whole lot more to make us what we have become today as a couple. its never easy for us but we took baby steps to get to where we are now. & there's more to come. Thankyou dikauu, for everything ♥
Thursday, October 15, 2009
PHEWWWWW! done at last :)
i told myself that i will not update til i change my blogskin so there, here is it! i saw fizah's tag in the morning & somehow that motivates me to find a skin & update. so yeah, thanz fizah! haha! fyi, e last few days, ive been searching on a simple yet pretty skin for my blog & not even 5 mins of searching, i get bored & turned to facebook instead. pathetic eh? whats up with me & always facebooking?
Since its been a long time that i post something here, let me just update on my pathetic life first. ok life is great! thats it. haha like seriously there's nothing exciting for me to say bout my life, just the greatness of it.
RANDOM-
- raya is almost over, had 3 straight days of awesome raya outing with great friends.
- deepavali coming soon & school resumes nx week.
- yesterday, had IKEA hotdog buns with suzana & drive to bedok reservoir park & chill at the swings & talk about everything. (e best!)
- its fahkrudin's first night shift today & we've been emailing eachother. (yes emailing instead of msging cause he knows im online -___- )
so thats it for now. goodnight babies!
Saturday, September 26, 2009
im superduper shagged but i will not make that as a reason not to post a birthday shout out to my dearie boyfriend. just like any other year,
Happy twenty-first birthday Sweetheart!
Dear Allah, please grant Fahkrudin good health & good wealth. please grant Fahkrudin happiness. please give Fahkrudin all the love just like he shares his love towards e others. please keep Fahkrudin safe in your care. please continue making Fahkrudin a strong man, overcoming your obstacles. please bless Fahkrudin in whatever good deeds he's goin to do.
and Thankyou Allah, for giving Fahkrudin 21 years of life. and thankyou again Allah for bringing this wonderful man to his family, his friends & me. Alhamdullilah.
50years down the road, Hanisah will stil love Fahkrudin. insyaallah :)
Friday, September 25, 2009
"We all sit in the driver's seat."
Heard that phrase somewhere & got me thinking e whole day. i do sit in the driver's seat since i got my license. Yes it feels good for some period of time but after awhile it was nothing. just some means of transportation. when i drive, i have to plan ahead on the roads to take to reach my destination. as most people know, im a street idiot. i dont follow direction on roads, instead i listened to direction from friends & family. i used to freak out when i got lost somewhere on the road alone afta sending my bro to work. thats where i began to look out for the direction & signs. i msged Fahkrudin & he said i should be able to find my way out cause i definitely wouldnt get lost in singapore. (not helping at all but psychologically it helps in a way to comfort my mind cause im freaking out!) then i called afiqjusli & got scolded cause im using the phone while driving. -__- so that leaves me with no choice but to find my own way. i search for signs that direct to the expressway. i drive straight ahead not wanting to risk taking the left or right turn. til i recognised some familiar roads & tried to figure some way out. i dont have a photographic memory but i manage to lead myself to the expressway & got myself safely home.
In another incident, i got lost again in some town area afta sending firah to orchard mrt. again, i try to search for signs that lead me to the expressway. not wanting to risk taking left & right turn again, i drive straight ahead & realised i was at commonwealth. obviously i freak out but i stay calm & kept praying to god to direct me to the right road. it was close to 11 at night. i stil drive straight til at some point i read signs that direct me back to the city. i tot if i went back to the city i might know the directions to the expressway. so yes, i followed & lead me to raffles place. thats where i tried using my photographic memory to remember the roads to the expressway. at one point, i have to decide taking e left or right turn cause there's no straight ahead road. i was waiting for e red light to turn green & i prayed so so hard & decide taking e left turn. afta i did, i saw a huge sign that says "PIE (CHANGI AIRPORT)" only god knows how relieved i was & i shouted in my car so loud to let out a huge relief! and once again, im safely home!
im sorry for all e unnecessary details that might bore u people. but somehow e phrase above says something bout our life, our journey in life. We are the driver to our life. we drive to get to our destination. we need to know the elements that wil lead to our destination. we have different destinations to get to & many-many choices to make. different choices result to different outcome. when we faced obstacles, we seek for people's advice, if not we seek for comfort in any kind of means possible. we wil feel lost, not knowing what to do & we prayed to god to give us an answer, to lead us the right way. we need to think before deciding. we need to brave ourself up & take e risk. risk that might be a good or a bad fall. if a bad fall, we dont give up & continue going. even when we tot we have given up, we're actually not. time is stil moving therefore life is stil going. the journey stil continue. u just forget bout the bad fall & try other alternative ways, making sure not to make e same mistakes again.
so yes, we all sit in the driver seats. when u drive a car, u have 4 close ones that share with u e journey. if u have only 1 close ones, then its betta u ride the bike. if u have many-many close ones, then u drive a lorry. (hahaha ok i know this is ridiculously lame!)
i think i drive lorry cause most people know, i have plenty of bestfriends. (yes fahkrudin once said my hobby is collecting bestfriends -__-) but in the lorry, e one sat beside the driver seat is definitely my Fahkrudin :)
-just some thoughts to share.
Saturday, September 19, 2009
Alhamdullilah, we have reach to the end of Ramadan & now its the night of malam raya & im blogging. cause im done with most of e cleaning & mama,papa are napping. time check: 2042 they didnt sleep last night. papa anyam ketupat & lepat while mama cook the dishes. start at 0030 yest til in the afternoon. here's e dishes: sambal goreng pengantin, sambal sotong, rendang & lauk lodeh. & i do help a lil by prepping the ingredients like chopping but not anything more cause mama prefer to do the cooking alone. so yeahhh kudos to mama for all e wonderful nyummy dishes! & she is stil thinking whether to cook ayam masak merah tonight cause e lil bro ask her to as it was his fav.
papa's ketupat,lepat turn out well & its a must to have that every raya. so far, in my sibs, no one can fold the leaves. we tried to learn but fail! haha i remember when im stil a lil girl & both sister's not married, we wil sit around papa & learn the ways of folding but end up no one was able to fold a good ketupat shape. we messed up the leaves & even took a couple of the ketupat leaves to hang in our room. e good old days! haiz now im all alone in e room thinking bout e good old days.
In those days, i share my room with kak yana & we wil clean e room on night of raya & blasting on raya songs. we constantly hear nags from mama cause of e last min clean up & we would only finish cleaning up in pagi raya & by then, all of us were extremely tired & slept thru the day & only went to nenek's house at 5pm. that was those good old days!
so now, im done cleaning up e room 3 days earlier & help out with some tiny bits of cleaning. mama is a perfectionist fyi so there's always something to clean up in the house -____-
yes im happy with this year prep of raya. cant wait for tmr! one of e reason is Fahkrudin. cause every 1st day of raya, we wil meet under my blk since his nenek's blk is right beside mine, & he wil modelled in his baju kurung for me. haha no la! he wanna seek forgiveness from me on 1st day of raya. (kiasu eh ni budak. ni case da byk buat salah! haha) ok aku bedek lagi! haha we just wanna see eachother for no particular reasons la. it has been that way ever since :)
ok im done blabbering nonsense so let me take this oportunity to wish u readers,
Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri
Ampun & maaf
please forgive me if nisa ever hurt anyone of u in any way possible, either with intention or unintentionally.
Have a great lebaran with ur love ones.
Urs truly, Hanisah :)